Trigger Me Happy

I can't stop checking things.

I can’t stop checking
things,
Pull down, refreshing
things,
Back and forth, assessing
things,
Obsessing over every-
thing.

Updates! Seduce me!
I’m pining for interruption. 
I close my eyes and dream of 
growing numbers in red circles.

13, 28, 1 and 3, 
was I always controlled by this need?
Information, you taste so sweet,
honey-dripped notifications on repeat.

Inform me.
Like me.
Distract me,
with commentary.
Affirm me.
Romance me.
Save me,
with fantasy.

I can’t stop checking
things,
Pull down, refreshing
things,
Back and forth, assessing
things,
Obsessing over every-
thing.

Never isolated from the 
access to more. 
We are trigger happy,
but miserable.